Whew, well it’s been a while since i’ve updated things here haha, didn’t intend on leaving it so long until my next update but things have happened which stopped me from really putting all the effort I wanted into this course…
For a while now I’ve been struggling with motivation problems, there could be so many things I want and need to do but I often would just find myself lay in bed worrying about it all instead of actually doing it. I’ve had this problem since college and I’ve been trying to tackle it head on as of late, but because of this I’ve neglected some of my studies along with this blog and I’m really trying to pick up the pace again. I was actually diagnosed with depression lately so my doctor thinks that’s the main source of my problems and she’s given me a few ways of dealing with the problem.
Because of this I’ve been finding it hard to really enjoy this course this past year. I feel like I’ve lost the passion for it I once had, well, that was until it came around to working on our possible third year films for next year. Ideas have always been what I love doing, not essays, writing, or reading any of that malarkey, but just creating ideas and working with those ideas either on my own or with people. I’ve always loved that, and that’s why I love animation, because not only can I have ideas that I get excited about but I’m also able to bring them to life using my own two hands. I’ve not had chance to do that much this year but now that I’m finally able to do something i’m more than passionate about I can feel my love for this course being rekindled, my motivation is flooding back and I’m starting to remember why I even joined this course in the first place.
Hopefully my motivation problems won’t hinder me during my third year as I’m planning on writing & directing a final film! I’ve had good feedback from everyone I’ve told my idea to so hopefully it will go through and I’ll be able to make it a reality!
So overall I just want to say, I finally feel like I’ve found my calling in this course, and I’m so excited to go on to the next year and make my final film!!